This post isn’t the normal rate-review format. I’ve been an absent father, and it’s time for me to come clean.
I LOVE what I’ve built in regards to Heavy Brutus. It’s been a phenomenal experience meeting new talent, listening to their work, writing posts that make many of you laugh (and some of you lash out in weird tirades…looking at you whatever-the-fuck your name is from Australia.).
Even musicians who DON’T rate typically high are welcomed and appreciated. Seriously, not everything is a home-run and the majority of you are so fucking passionate it’s inspiring. I wouldn’t be here without any of you.
So, What’s the deal? Where the fuck have I been?
I have been jobless for a few months. I mean, down and out broke, struggling to not only pay bills but to eat. The job market in my state is INSANE…it’s that cluster-fuck of ill educated people/business owners saying, “NoBoDy WaNtS tO wOrK!” paired with small and large companies taking advantage of the “Times are Tough” narrative to over work their employees, employ less for less, and push out more productivity which often times results in shittier products for their consumer.
Without money, I can’t build Heavy Brutus to where I want it to be right now, but without updating you, I wouldn’t be transparent or half the artist advocate I want to be.
This isn’t a ploy or a beg for money by the way. Please don’t mistake this for that.
I am a music writer, and this is a music blog, and don’t worry there wont be many posts where I’m griping about the world, but to ignore what I have been struggling with would be ultimately ignoring you, the monumentally small but fiercely mighty fan base built up of dreamers, musicians, close friends, and my parents.
On top of being unemployed and massively broke, I have also been mind numbingly depressed. I mean, wont eat, but will sleep, struggling to self care, down and out depressed.
Without my girlfriend, my mom, and you all it and I would fall through the cracks unnoticed.
I think some of you have noticed, because many of you have reached out. Fucking A, thank you. Seriously, you don’t even know me…but you read this enough to give a shit. Thank you.
It’s not your responsibility but its this unspoken brotherhood amongst artists that we lift and build each other up. You’re amazing.
So, where do I go from here?
I’m going to take it slow, and I’m going to do my best, because many of you expect my best…but in the best kind of way.
Expect more to come, and once I finally get a job…this site will be ever bigger and better, and I am so excited to have many of you along for the ride.
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